Who needs to escape life with television when real life consciousness becomes better than television?: Nobody. That is the point of this article. Oh, when life is “bad”, “everything on television looks better”. Indeed though, my question is though, what if real life was better than television and everything was the opposite of what this current civilization offers? That is a big question for me. For, all of my life, I have never fit into this world and had an incredible sense of the theatrical in real life instead of trying to be “normal”. I have always wanted life to be theater and exciting instead of living in a boring way, and then watching it all on television, movies and media. In short, I want to play, not be a messed up “paying spectator” watching the action. I want to be in the reality of the action, not watch it and get “jolly feelings” indirectly and then “come back to reality”.

Personally, I want my reality to be an opera of greatness instead of a boring and meaningless “earning exercise” like most people get. I do not just want to invest, I want to really live and control theatrically the whole scene behind and in front. I want consciousness to be fulfilling in itself in a self-contained way, not needing “fuel” and outer things to make it work.

Strangely, I have always leaned toward the dramatic in reality instead of “settling for the meaningless”. I’ve always loved the larger than life over the normal anyway. Most people want a show and then they go home. Well, I want the show to be real, fulfilling life at every level rather than relegate the “madness” to a “subconscious unfulfilled trash dump” while lying through my conscious about my nature, my life and my reality. After all, why do you think so many “normal” people watch car chases on the news or “get off” on bad news then bury their frustrations deeper and deeper with more lies to themselves about how “normal” they are.

I may be a little bit too honest about it all or a little too much of a “freak of nature” in some ways. But what are those normal, mystical people who lie to themselves inside genuinely anyway? The honest truth is always there however much it is denied, hidden, put down, pushed away and feared. It is always there.